"In your action, you lose sight of the vision, you lose sight of your trust in the process, and you just bang around in a sense of futility. Hold the vision and trust that the Universe will acclimate to your vision. Hold the vision and trust the process." ~ Abraham
So then the only real question is: Are you letting it be as good as it gets for You? Either we're allowing or resisting. One or the other. Makes it simple, yes?
Have fun! Repeat: Have Fun! Now, there's a broken record worth keeping fo'ever!
Regardless of how it may seem at any given moment, no thing or no one out there can hold, keep or control your powerful life force unless you let him/her/it.
Focus on what you love to do, first. The career will weave itself through it to You.
Take A Walk With Your Angels 