Maybe you didn't even know those downgrading, denegrating thoughts were playing like a broken record in your mind while you were in the middle of a quantum leap towards aspects of your Desired Reality.
"In your action, you lose sight of the vision, you lose sight of your trust in the process, and you just bang around in a sense of futility. Hold the vision and trust that the Universe will acclimate to your vision. Hold the vision and trust the process." ~ Abraham